Examination of Conscience

Cloisters on the Platte - Part of the Friday Morning Prayer:

Lord, you have called us to depend upon you in humility, trusting your ways, your guidance, your strength, and help. For the times and ways in which I have forgotten about you and depended instead upon my strength, my wisdom, and my ways, I am truly sorry.

I place in your hands for forgiveness my impatience, intolerance, and harsh judgments. Knowing full well my shortcomings and how often I have been wrong or fallen short, still I can hold myself and others to impossible standards; too often I can treat family members, friends, neighbors, and co-workers as an annoyance or an interruption, rather than recognizing them as companions in life. For all that is harsh within me… for the ways in which I have refused to bear with others lovingly, I beg your forgiveness, Lord.

As your follower, Lord Jesus, I am sent to bring unity and to build up your church and your world. Even in the face of disappointments born of brokenness and sin, you ask me to be a reconciler and to speak with charity and care. But I find that I have sometimes let myself be cynical or negative, and have undermined and harmed others through gossip or through focusing upon their faults. For bringing division rather than building unity, I ask your pardon, Lord.

Father, you challenge us to choose ways and words and actions and attitudes that will lead us to deeper life, holiness, and service. Sometimes I hand over control of my life to my worst self, or to the worst in others. I too easily react to others in hostility or anger when they are out of sorts, rather than choosing to hold fast to my better self. I give free rein to anger, or to lusts or attractions that lead me away from who I most want to be. I listen to stories, view images, programs, or movies, or go along with conversations that I know are not life-giving and that lead me away from the path of your Son. I find myself lying to others to cover my faults, failures, or mistakes, or I lie to avoid conflicts or to enhance my reputation. For being passive when I should make better choices, and for allowing my life to drift, I ask forgiveness and a new beginning, Lord.

Your blessings surround me and fill me, Father of all, yet I have not stopped to say “thank you” nearly enough. I have taken for granted your love for me, and have neglected my prayers or the ways you offer me grace through the church body. I have allowed myself to forget the gifts you give me by sending others into my life: spouse, parents, children, brothers and sisters, friends, fellow Christians, neighbors, co-workers. Having taken for granted how blessed I am, I have also failed sometimes to be concerned for those who are sick, lonely, hungry, or suffering. For all of these I am sorry, Lord, and ask you to make me new.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

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